Today I was listening to my ipod cleaning the dishes while the kids were sleeping and heard this Mark Schultz song again. Here are some of the words:
"Oh child...Precious one,
Let your life shine like the Son.
Live with the wonder of a child.
Pray with your arms thrown open wide.
Love with the love that has no end.
Until I see you again!"
I love this song.
I love what it makes me think about.
I don't often live with the wonder of a child. I should. I have great examples around me all day long.
I rarely throw my arms open and plead with my Father. Don't get me wrong, I pray but its more of a conversation.
I pray that I love unconditionally and without end, but I know I don't get close.
As I read the words over and over again, I can't help but think of something that I've heard God reminding me over the last several weeks.
"It's not about me."
Ever since I shared about starting an adoption ministry I have talked to so many people about it and it's really been encouraging. But as soon as I start talking about the foster care part most people start getting uncomfortable.
I can't tell you how many people have said, "But I just couldn't do that. I couldn't fall in love with a child knowing that I could lose them." Then God says, "Well, this isn't about you!"
So when I hear that song say, love with a love that has no end that means to me, love when you know you might experience pain. Don't just love when it's easy to love.
When I hear the song say, live with the wonder of a child, I think about how our children would consider foster care. This is what Owen said to me last week,
"Mom, you know there are kids without families? They could come here and they would love our family. They'd be like, 'This is a great family' "
No lie. Out of the mouths of babes, huh? He knew about the children we spoke of a couple of months ago. I told him the things we were collecting were for some children that didn't have a mommy and daddy. Boy do kids remember things like that!
What if we lived with the wonder of a child? What if we loved without condition? Perhaps a child would feel the love of Christ that they might have never felt otherwise. I think that'd be worth the possibility of me losing a child, don't you?
Our group met again tonight to discuss more about what an adoption ministry would look like at our church. All I can say is that it was incredible and humbling to be a part of. There were 10 there from 4 churches and now we have 23 people that are wanting to be involved. And this is before we have even discussed this with our church! Can't wait to see what all God is doing here and it's super exciting! Please pray for me tomorrow as I discuss our dreams with one of our pastors.