Ok. Don't get me wrong.
I keep a clean house.
I don't want anyone thinking we live like pigs around here.
Heck, we never could have been approved for adoptions if we did. But it's shocking how quickly we can tear a place up.
I have found in the last month that there is a HUGE difference between being clean and living in the ready-t0-show mode every minute of the day.
I am used to having lots of downtime while the kids nap to blog.
Not.anymore. We listed the house last week and that's left little time for me to do anything outside of mommying and cleaning.
As much as I hate not blogging, this sure is fabulous to have all laundry done and for the house to be so stinking spotless.
There are lots of other things going on that are keeping us busy. Blake has started his worst service of every year, the dreaded trauma service.
Every year during this time we miss each other SO much that my heart just aches. I hate to see him so worn out. I hate how little he gets to see the kids. I hate seeing them cry over missing him. And then I remind myself what a wonderful life we have and that I need to just suck it up...its only 10 weeks. He could be in the military. He could be a cop. At least I know he is safe and will return to us at some point.
Chosen is still going. Our Waiting Moms group is going strong and its such a wonderful time to be among women who understand this journey. As far as the rest of the ministry goes, we are struggling to figure out how to get our church (elders) on board with what we are doing. I am feeling so much pressure with how to keep it afloat these next few months and especially when we move. Eek.
Sometimes I just want to not do anything but soak in every single second with the munchkins and Blake. Now you see why we agreed to Aspen again. As much as we are having to do to get there. It's incredible to just be us, no other obligations, for 3 months. I realize how quickly these tender bitty years pass. It's difficult to slow down in life, you know...to say no to so much. But I realize the more I say yes to, the more I am taking away from my own family.
All of this to say, I am not going to be blogging much anymore. This started out as one thing and sadly, internally, has turned into something else. So, for now at least, I am signing off. I may end up just posting some small updates and pics here and there for family and our precious birth families when we are away. That's what it was originally intended for, and yet it inside my head it turned into something else and it has taken precious time away from those I hold most dear.
Something has got to give, and this seems to make the most sense.
I think this picture speaks a thousand words. Soak.it.up.
I cannot believe how much she has changed in just 2.5 months.She smiles all of the time, but I usually am just giggling right back at her instead of trying to get it on camera.