"So promise me you'll never forget...that you aren't an accident or an incident...you are a gift to the world, a divine work of art, signed by God. You were deliberately planned, specifically gifted, and lovingly positioned on this earth...Flooded by emotion, overcome by pride, the Starmaker turns to us, one by one, and says, 'You are my child. I love you dearly.'" Max Lucado, God Thinks You're Wonderful

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Something's Gotta Give

Ok. Don't get me wrong.

I keep a clean house.
I don't want anyone thinking we live like pigs around here.
Heck, we never could have been approved for adoptions if we did. But it's shocking how quickly we can tear a place up.
I have found in the last month that there is a HUGE difference between being clean and living in the ready-t0-show mode every minute of the day.
I am used to having lots of downtime while the kids nap to blog.
Not.anymore. We listed the house last week and that's left little time for me to do anything outside of mommying and cleaning.
As much as I hate not blogging, this sure is fabulous to have all laundry done and for the house to be so stinking spotless.
There are lots of other things going on that are keeping us busy. Blake has started his worst service of every year, the dreaded trauma service.
Every year during this time we miss each other SO much that my heart just aches. I hate to see him so worn out. I hate how little he gets to see the kids. I hate seeing them cry over missing him. And then I remind myself what a wonderful life we have and that I need to just suck it up...its only 10 weeks. He could be in the military. He could be a cop. At least I know he is safe and will return to us at some point.
Chosen is still going. Our Waiting Moms group is going strong and its such a wonderful time to be among women who understand this journey. As far as the rest of the ministry goes, we are struggling to figure out how to get our church (elders) on board with what we are doing. I am feeling so much pressure with how to keep it afloat these next few months and especially when we move. Eek.
Sometimes I just want to not do anything but soak in every single second with the munchkins and Blake. Now you see why we agreed to Aspen again. As much as we are having to do to get there. It's incredible to just be us, no other obligations, for 3 months. I realize how quickly these tender bitty years pass. It's difficult to slow down in life, you know...to say no to so much. But I realize the more I say yes to, the more I am taking away from my own family.
All of this to say, I am not going to be blogging much anymore. This started out as one thing and sadly, internally, has turned into something else. So, for now at least, I am signing off. I may end up just posting some small updates and pics here and there for family and our precious birth families when we are away. That's what it was originally intended for, and yet it inside my head it turned into something else and it has taken precious time away from those I hold most dear.
Something has got to give, and this seems to make the most sense.
I think this picture speaks a thousand words. Soak.it.up.
I cannot believe how much she has changed in just 2.5 months.
She smiles all of the time, but I usually am just giggling right back at her instead of trying to get it on camera.


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jjbrown03 said...

Molly-dear, while I've learned SO much by reading your blog, I applaud you for making a tough decision. I know I struggle with the same things and will pray the Lord multiplies your time! Jana

mckenziegordon said...

I totally understand your sabbatical, but I must confess, I'll miss reading your stories and seeing your sweet kiddos on a regular basis. Enjoy!

Glenda said...

So sorry to hear that life is keeping you so busy. But you can find rest in the Lord. I had just given your blog link to a couple of adoptive family's so they could see how God has blessed your family in so many ways.I know that i will look forward to your blog post even if they are once a year.

Melodie said...

we'll miss ya! but i get it.

Anonymous said...

I have truly enjoyed reading your blog. Your words and your family have really touched my life and made me think in new ways. I am sad that there will be less on the blog, but as a fellow young mom,(we are still young, right?) I completely understand. Enjoy your precious family. I know I did. :)
Stephenie (used to be Randall)

Jamila said...

Please keep posting the pictures when you can. Love you guys. I pray for chosen every time I see a post on fb. Will pray specifically for wisdom & the elders.

Laura said...

Hello sweet sister! So proud of you, as always. Yep, there's only so much we can do.

LOVE the pics! And Emery...the one with the animal print onesie with the pink flower bow! AHH! That bow is so cute, and on such a cute little girlie!

The boys asked if their cousin would be at the football game this weekend :) They are used to them being there, so they think that they will come every week! So funny, but so glad they love each other!

Have a good day!!

Betty S. said...

You will be greatly missed but I look forward to seeing your pictures of your beautiful children whenever you get the chance to post. Family time is important and we will continue to pray for Chosen -that the groups future will be one that is best for all of us. the group has helped me in so many ways. Love you my sweet friend.

Becki Francy said...

Must be in the genes....I too can't say "no" and I need to work on it!

Little sister, you always teach me lessons, more than I do for you! We always need to be willing to assess where we are and what is taking our time. Of course you have TWICE as many little people pulling on you!

Missed EMM most of all last week. Makes me sad how fast she is growing and knowing she might be our last baby!

Kristin said...

Sorry to see less of you, ya know, in blog world, but totally understand. I think you've served your great purpose on here, and for those who stumble upon your blog, what a gem they will find in your previous posts! Thank you for sharing your words, and God's!

Julie said...

Thank you for the reminder of always putting family first and being willing to give up certain things in order to focus on what's most important. It's a lesson I hope to continually be reminded of. I'll be praying for you guys.