"So promise me you'll never forget...that you aren't an accident or an incident...you are a gift to the world, a divine work of art, signed by God. You were deliberately planned, specifically gifted, and lovingly positioned on this earth...Flooded by emotion, overcome by pride, the Starmaker turns to us, one by one, and says, 'You are my child. I love you dearly.'" Max Lucado, God Thinks You're Wonderful

Saturday, September 22, 2012

Simma Down

Did you ever see that SNL skit Simma Down Now? 

I feel like I need to settle down from all this wrestling going on in my heart.  It's intense in there.  And honestly, it's painful.  I don't want to hurt like this.  I feel actual physical ache in my heart for the facts that I have read about poverty, starvation, and the blind eye I have turned to this.  And then I remember that allowing a return of comfort would only be going back to where I was.  There is a reason God has stirred my heart.  I need to make changes.  To only feel guilty about this culture and go on with life is useless.  And to only speak about it, or the books, and change nothing is also sinful.  It is now blatantly obvious to me God has called us to something different. 

I am desperate for Jesus to work through me.  To use all of me.  And I am sad to say I have always held parts of me from Him.  Several of these books opened my eyes to that fact.  And in that truth, it brought me freedom that I have never felt to actually give Him every part of myself...just like He asked.  I have begun to really grab hold of the fact that this IS my responsibility.  The fact that 26,000 children die from starvation or preventable disease everyday makes my stomach turn.  It's horrific. 

"So when you and I hear staggering numbers and statistics about the poor and needy around us and around the world, we have a choice.  We can switch the channels on our mega-TVs and continue our comfortable, untroubled, ordinary, churchgoing lives as if the global poor don't exist.  We can let these numbers remain cold, distant, and almost imaginary.  Or we can open our eyes and our lives to the realities that surround us and begin considering the faces that are represented by these numbers....We can stand with the starving or with the overfed.  We can embrace Jesus while we give away our wealth, or we can walk away from Jesus while we hoard our wealth." David Platt, Radical

God just keeps speaking so clearly to me that I have become way too comfortable in my life.  That I can give Him all of me and I can completely trust my children, my marriage and my heart to Him. 

 Singing and dancing "If You're Happy and You Know It!"  She LOVES to sing!!
 Sister couldn't go to sleep one night and she got to snuggle with daddy and watch football.  Shhhh, don't tell her bigs!
 Happy 7th birthday OWEN!!!
 Story time before bed...they are so sweet to always smile for the camera!  This too shall pass!

 Happy 4th birthday Sadie!  She chose the Hello Kitty donut!
 That sweet chocolate skin doesn't hide any goodies we eat!  She loved the flower donut though ;)

So what does that change look like?  How does that unfold for each of us?  Certainly it will be different for all of us, so I won't stand up here like a dingbat and say we all need to do this or that. 

It's frustrating to see that we save, hoard and bicker about how much is enough to give when we know that people are dying every minute around the world. Jen Hatmaker's book 7 helped me to see how easily global hunger could be eliminated if we cared more about this than dog food, or perfume. Seriously!?!? We spend more on those than ending hunger.

I am excited to see all that is to come for us.  I am amazed that I feel acutely aware now about what true needs are and all that we live with that our culture says is a need.  It's embarrassing really.  God has called us to store up our treasures in heaven, not on earth...this is a battle, a war to not get caught up in the current.  Deep breath...  Is this the narrow road He meant?   I think so sister. 


Aspiring Foster Mama said...

Beautiful post! Can't wait to see what He's calling you to! No doubt, it will be incredible. :)

Courtney said...

love you girl. proud of you for standing up and doing something and living differently. i can't wait to see all he does in and through you.

october 1st. starting 7! You in?

kuliejellogg said...

Hi! I've met you a couple times, and I trust you to be kind and helpful, so I'm reaching out to you for a little knowledge. My daughter is almost 5, and she is increasingly aware of everyone's similarities and differences. When we were in drop-off at pre-K, a sub was there, and my daughter excitedly said, "Look! A chocolate teacher!" I'm not sure what to teach her about color/race, etc. Could you help me know what to say? I know you use chocolate (like in this post) in such a loving way, but I want to be sensitive to everyone and teach her the "right way" to talk. Make sense? Thanks for any help!

Molly said...

Hi Julie! I remember you! I think we actually officially met at the library in Edmond? Here is the thing, kids notice color. Adults attach emotion to it. But she is right, the teacher is brown, black or "chocolate". I honestly think that as adults we need to relax a bit and let the children talk about it for what it is, BEAUTIFUL! God made us all unique and yet beautifully in His image. I try and let my kids talk about color without attaching any history to it. When adults get upset, we need to realize history and we may even need to stick up for our child and their comment. Most every AA adult that saw Emery in Atlanta gasped and called her chocolate and wanted to touch her and eat her up. This helped me to relax too bc it showed me that what I was feeling, was also excepted by many in the AA community and culture. Not that every AA person feels comfortable with that, but we need to teach our children truth and kindness without teaching them to believe something about history. Gosh I hope this helps, but I should probably do a post on it! Great question mama!

Molly said...

dang *accepted*