I have been neglecting this little blog thing here. But for good reason.
God has moved something awful crazy in my heart. My family thinks I need help.
I am not a reader. I rarely take the time to read anything, and sadly even reading the Bible had become blah. (horribly sad to admit because of my deep love for Jesus).
One of the more influential women in my life (Jen Hatmaker) wrote a couple of books. And I had to read them because I love her and trust her.
Well then that led to me finishing a book in 3 days which is UNHEARD of for me. I usually get the the very end and then quit. Wha?
So from June-now I have not been able to stop the constant reading. She mentioned several books and other friends did too. I am hungry again for words from Jesus, even if it takes these authors hitting me over the head with the reality that I have been ignoring some pretty big things.
Here they are. If you are needing a good read and are ready for something serious to happen in your heart, you cannot miss these.
Radical- David Platt
Crazy Love-Francis Chan
Kisses from Katie-Katie Davis
7- Jen Hatmaker
I cannot think straight I am so conflicted with our life in America and the needs of those around us. How did I become so comfortable with this? How did I not see so many suffering and truly believe they are my responsibility? How did I miss that in the Bible?
I am ashamed. I am disgusted. I am achy. I am stir crazy for wanting to DO SOMETHING. And poor Blake has known all along that I am odd, but now I want to be really weird and actually do what Jesus asked us to do...lay down my life for Him.
In the midst of all of this wrestling in my heart, we have gone full force into the foster care ministry with our new church. We are floored by the needs in our community and state. So two weekends ago we brought home 2 kids from the shelter for 3 nights over Labor Day weekend. Our church got involved with DHS in a program called Home for the Holidays. The idea is for faith families to become certified (approved?) to take children from the shelter for a holiday weekend. We were honored to join 13 other families from our church in taking home 17 kiddos!
It was such a great experience. Don't get me wrong...it's wasn't convenient (we already have 4 lovies). It wasn't comfortable. It wasn't easy. But hello believers...God never told us life would be any of those. He kept whispering to me all weekend when I would get discouraged, "Life is not supposed to be comfortable sweets." How have I let myself believe these lies for so long?
As we drove the kids back to the shelter I was sick to my stomach. Every child begged to not go back. Not for lack of love, cleanliness and care there, but it's a shelter for heaven's sake!!!! Kids belong in families. And I didn't have any good reason why the kids couldn't stay (besides we needed more training to be certified). I have room. I have Jesus. This weekend just felt like a band-aide for this gaping wound that was in my city. The reality hit me that why do I not think that these children are just as much my children as the ones God has already blessed me with. Didn't He say they are all His? None of them are really "ours".
Please watch this amazing video. Pray with me about what God has already asked us to do. God doesn't call us...He already commanded us to do this. When we give our hearts to Jesus, then we must do as He commands.
Consider reading these books. I beg it of my brothers and sisters.