Open Adoption

So many people are freaked out by open adoption. They think it means that we have joint custody of the child or something. This is not all the case. Open adoption really just means that there is an understanding of the adoptive family that the birthmother needs to know her child is okay.

It's trying to put yourself in their shoes and see that healing is more complete if they can have a relationship with their child. We believe this is best for both the birthparents, the adoptive parents and the child.

All of this to say, we had our first visit with Mommy G last night. I can't tell you how bad I want to post pictures of this beautiful woman.

The pictures are breath-taking...not just because Mommy G is gorgeous, but because of what happens when birthmom and child can hold each other again.

It brings tears to my eyes just thinking about it.

We did very little last night but watch these two cuddle. I am embarrassed to admit that I took 90 pictures! Whoops! You think I got carried away.

I just know that Sadie would want to see this years from now. So this momma tried to capture every snuggle and every kiss from Mommy G.

The hard part was saying good-bye and for her to have to hand Sadie over yet again. But she said she felt great to be able to hold her and see us as a family.

We loaded our car and she went to hers, then she walked up behind me and said, "I am sorry, but I need one last hug!" From me! She wanted to hug me again.

I love this woman more than I will ever be able to write. I would give anything to have just loaded her into our car and brought her home! I know that sounds weird to many of you, but if you ever experience adoption, you'll know what I mean.

Thanks for your prayers. She is feeling everyone of them!

As an update for Sadie, she is up to 7lbs and 2oz. We took her into the doctor because we are having some really rough nights. Seems she has some reflux, so we started some meds. Last night was much better!

Love you all!