Speechless

I have been dying to spill the beans.

We were told we were picked by a birth mom on Monday. OH MY GOODNESS!!!!!

We simply didn't think this could be real, so we waited until today when I met C to let the cat out of the bag.

As you know, we choose open adoptions, so C wanted to meet us before the baby was born. Of course, we were so excited at this opportunity. It worked out best for C's schedule to meet today at 11 at the agency. So my Blaker did not get to come, but it was great anyway! My precious MIL came to stay with the kids while I nervously made my way across town.

These meetings are truly incredible. What do you say to a mama who has chosen life and family for her child? How in the world do you thank her? I want to memorize her every word, facial expression, gesture, and giggle. What I wouldn't give to get this on video tape. So we sat for almost 2 hours and just got to know each other. I like to find out their favorites, so that day to day, I can share these tidbits with the kids. It's so cool to know what kind of things they like and dislike and then to see those show up in the kiddos. We discussed names, and the hospital plan and dreams for her child.

I wanted to bull doze her with a bear hug, but thought it might not be best seeing she's 39 weeks preggers! That's right folks...next week!!! She is PRECIOUS and has a heart of gold. And in this moment, as excited as I am, my heart breaks for her as I watched her slowly begin to grieve what she was losing and I was gaining. Such a bittersweet moment. It was as if in meeting me she knew this was a sweet beginning, but also a horrible end at the same time.

Please pray for C. These next weeks will be simply unbearable. As we clearly know, things could change in a heartbeat. But we also know that our God is faithful, and we know that if we were in C's shoes, we're not sure we could place either. She has such love for her baby. And she is choosing what's best for the child, not for herself.

Oh, and if you have any GIRL names...send 'em my way!!! That's right, we are getting another SISTER!!! And I know you are dying to know...yes, she is brown!!! Yummers!

The girls will be sharing a room! How fun will this be? I am so excited for Sadie to have a sister, even though the boys have been asking for one more than she has! Love you all and thanks for celebrating with us!