This week has actually been really good. I have felt that ever since Tuesday's turn around, things have just been getting easier and easier and God has so healed my heart.
Grandy pushing Sadie on the swing at the zoo! I have to brag here, Grandy just turned 89 and spent all morning with us at the zoo! She amazes me, I forget her age and what most 89 year olds are doing!Cooper pushing Sadie and Grandy pushing cousin Ragon! We had so much fun and you'll see below that Aunt Becki spoiled us by buying the kids tokens for the rides!
We had a wonderful play date on Thursday and one of my sisters, Becki, her kids and my Grandy came to meet us at the zoo. It was a blast.
Sadie even got to ride on the train! So much fun...her hands don't just look huge, they ARE huge!
What a treasure to have family close enough that they can come and play for a day!
Friday was pretty fabulous because of the weather. We stayed outside most of the day and even had a picnic!
And then there was Saturday. Ugh. It kept hitting me all day that Kennedy was 2 weeks old. I kept having to pray and remind myself that God is in complete control and it does me no good to focus on it. It was just a day that it was a battle for me to keep my spirits up. The weather was yuck here so it didn't help that we couldn't be outside playing.
Blake was a pumpkin though. We slept in and when we finally made it out of bed (8:00) he made us all waffles. Then he made my heart smile by riding around the house on the plasma car. He wouldn't let me take a picture of him, but oh how funny it was! Poor guy, his whole life is blogged and he has to request that certain things not be photographed and put on the Internet...sorry sweets! Sadie loves playing basketball too!!! See how long her legs and arms are too?!?!
I find myself wondering how normal this is...to still be talking about it two weeks later. There is no handbook on how to handle failed placements, when to move on and not hope she'll change her mind. We've been through this before, so one might think we'd know how to do this...but those situations were different. Our last one we never met birth mom or baby. We planned on placement for about a month, so that dream was lost...but goodness its been harder that we knew C and love both her and Kennedy.
Sorry to go on about it here, but quite frankly it's great to be able to get this out and journal what's going on in my head.
Today was wonderful getting to go to church and refocus my heart back where it should have been yesterday. We are so blessed by our church family!
"You're blessed when you feel you've lost what is most dear to you. Only then can you be embraced by the One most dear to you." Matt 5:4 The Message