Playing while we wait

Seriously, how cute are they??? Sadie LOVED her yogurt to dip her apples in. Yet another display of Owen's sweetness. He got his pillow and blankie and made a place for Sadie and Cooper to lay on while he pulled them. Below he is covering her and telling her she can chew on his blanket if she wants (that's what he does). I love how he's stooped down to talk to her.

I forget how much kids Sadie's age eat dirt!!! She is constantly eating grass, sand, leaves and such! Why in the world doesn't she do that with food? Is my cooking that bad?

Now if this doesn't capture the essence of childhood, I don't know what does. Shoes on backwards, sucker in, eyes closed and the smell of spring in the air. Not a care in the world!

Well, we couldn't have better weather these last several days. It's made waiting on Miss KK much easier!

We saw C yesterday afternoon and played at the park. It was so much fun that we stayed until 6! When the kids go to bed at 7, that's staying late! We came home to Blake cooking breakfast for dinner for all of us!

Needless to say, we are feeling incredibly blessed. We are soaking up every bit of this anticipation believing that Kennedy will come home to us. But we also know that it is very real that she may not.

It takes balance (and a lot of self talk!) to enjoy this time, and not give into fear of what ifs and how we will get our children and ourselves through that. But we also know, because we've had adoptions fall through before, that He is faithful and will never leave us. Only He knows the outcomes for Kennedy and our family. We keep going back to that baby that we lost before Sadie and how if we she had become a Shockley, then we wouldn't have sister. Whoa.

So today, we rest in the goodness of anticipating something so wonderful as new life. But we also wait knowing what C is about to experience. We realize that we don't "know" it as if we've been birth parents, but we know it because we've watched our birth moms walk it before. It's the most intense mix of emotions at the hospital, and you'd be cheating yourself and your child to not let yourself experience those fully. It's such a raw time, and yet so wonderful and sweet. I've told so many people how spiritual this process is, I feel the presence of Christ so heavily in those moments and we always walk away deeply changed.

Not so sure how she feels about getting this kiss, but it sure was cute! You are such a wonderful big bro Coop!