"So promise me you'll never forget...that you aren't an accident or an incident...you are a gift to the world, a divine work of art, signed by God. You were deliberately planned, specifically gifted, and lovingly positioned on this earth...Flooded by emotion, overcome by pride, the Starmaker turns to us, one by one, and says, 'You are my child. I love you dearly.'" Max Lucado, God Thinks You're Wonderful

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Now what?

I am pretty sure some of you are thinking, so what happens now?

Well, our profile is back in the mix! So much of that is wonderful to know that it's a part of us moving forward. But I would be lying if I said that I am totally over this. It is hard when you get to cut their umbilical cord, watch them take their first breath, watch their first bath, smell them, kiss them, diaper and feed them. I have no idea what to do with 100 pics of her. Mercy, I can't imagine what a birth mom feels saying good-bye. We also got so excited about Sadie and the boys having another sister. I grew up with 3 older sisters and they are such treasures to me. They are my best friends to this day. I want that for Sadie.
But we are trusting that God knows what's best for Sadie, as well as all of us!
Our profile should go online with the agency in the next week or so.

We have still been talking with C in hopes that she understands we love her without condition. Even though we met her because of Kennedy, we want to support her and pray for her regardless of where Kennedy ends up. Please join us in praying for her, that she feels peace about her decision.
We hope and pray that in our efforts to share our adoption journey and the realities of it, that we haven't scared people off from joining us in this! I realize to so many that this looks scary, and perhaps a little insane. But from our perspective, even though we've experienced pain and loss, the blessings are overflowing and it is so worth the heartache and uncertainty. It is an incredible feeling to have Christ pick up the pieces, mend us and hold us. There are so many things that we've experienced this last week that we can't help but be thankful for...but nothing more than our faith and hope in Jesus.

I took the kids to Tulsa to see my family this last week thinking it would be a great distraction, and it was. It's amazing what talking will do for your soul. Thank you to my family and friends who allowed me to share the story, yet again. You have no idea how refreshing our time was with all of you!
We had so much fun playing with the kids. Okay, Grayson wasn't so much loving it at the moment!
Yea, I don't really fit on it...but those buggers are a blast! And they are wonderful therapy for the soul! SO HILARIOUS!
Thanks Becki for making me laugh! All of my sisters and my parents dropped everything to hang out with us! You all are the best!

Someone learned how to climb the stairs! OH NO! Doesn't she look mischievous?
Music has been so healing this week. This one has been particularly close to my heart as it's what got us through our time with Cooper's journey. Hope Natalie is okay with me sharing the words!
Who told us we’d be rescued
What has changed and
Why should we be saved from nightmares
We're asking why this happens to us
This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and know
That the promise was when everything fell
We’d be held


Julie Shaw said...

I really enjoy your blog!

Jamila said...

You have not scared me off yet. It's so exciting to see what GOD is going to do. We love you all to pieces! Sadie's green bow looks super cute!

Candy said...

Molly, I know we don't actually know each other but I am friends with Terra and I have commented here before. I told Terra already, but I want to tell you personally that I have followed you for over a year and your journey. I have been following you the past weeks and my heart has literally hurt for you. We also went through the same thing before Roxy was born. Our birthmom even let us put our last name on the birth certificate. It was heartbreaking and maybe the worst pain I had ever experienced. But, like you, we knew that God had a plan, and that wasn't our baby. If that had never happened we would not have Roxy, and I can't imagine life without Roxy. I will continue to pray for you; hopefully we can meet next time you are in Tulsa.

Kristy said...

Molly I think that you sharing your adoption stories are so awesome you can explain everything so well in your post I know you inspire me and I'm sure many many other mom's.

mom2many said...

Molly, as much as it hurts now, we know that God knows exactly what children He wants in your home. Why He allows us to fall in love with the ones that aren't meant to be, I won't understand this side of Heaven, but I do know that it's all for our good! He is growing you and strenghthening you to be the momma that your children (even the ones we don't know about yet) need you to be. I look back over the last 18 months of my life and where I was then compared to where I am now and I don't think I would change a thing. Well, I'd probably be much quicker to listen and hopefully a better learner!! But God will exceed the desires of your heart! For cryin out loud...I'm getting a THUMB SUCKER!!! I've ALWAYS wanted a thumb sucker!! God is good all the time!

Meg said...

I don't know you, but I love your blog. Just wanted to let you know that I think about your family daily and pray for God's will in this situation. Hang in there!

Jana said...

I just found your blog today and I am so glad I did! We are starting our adoption process and it is so helpful to hear truthful stories. I was cruising through some of your old posts and saw you mentioned diabetes. Our oldest was diagnosed about a year and a half ago. Any tips on helping him deal with the childhood issues that are bound to come up? Love the blog!!