"So promise me you'll never forget...that you aren't an accident or an incident...you are a gift to the world, a divine work of art, signed by God. You were deliberately planned, specifically gifted, and lovingly positioned on this earth...Flooded by emotion, overcome by pride, the Starmaker turns to us, one by one, and says, 'You are my child. I love you dearly.'" Max Lucado, God Thinks You're Wonderful







Sunday, March 7, 2010

Seeing the Sun through the Clouds

Today Blake and I were driving and I noticed the sun peaking through the clouds. It was pretty and I just took it in. Then I thought how you really can't often look straight at the sun like that.

It was cool how I could look straight at it because the clouds were blocking most of it. It was just beautiful.

Then I thought about life and how often we miss so much of God's presence until things get "cloudy". Then all of the sudden we feel Him so heavily in our hearts and our lives. It's like the poo of life even brings glory to our Father. He is always there walking with us, but it's during those times of deep pain that we see Him most vividly.

Let me explain.

Friday night Blake and I were watching a movie. It was a sad movie, but Blake and I were enjoying our cuddle time and just being together. At 9:45 my phone recieved a text. It was C and she said, "Just thought I should let you know my water broke"

We immediately jumped up and called her. We planned to meet each other at the hospital. We called our family and were shaking with excitement. Blake's parents came up to stay with the kids since they were out, and we went to the hospital to meet C. She labored for almost 12 hours and delivered sweet Kennedy Kate @ 8:17 am. She is perfect and weighed 7 lbs 8oz and is 20 inches long and has a full head of black hair..yes more hair than Sadie!!!

I was there during the entire delivery and even got to cut the umbilical cord! I bawled when she came out and gave us the most beautiful cry. It really was a perfect delivery and things couldn't have gone better.

Then late afternoon yesterday after we were moved to the post partum unit, things changed drastically. We ended up leaving the hospital without Kennedy. I don't want to share details with the whole world about what happened, but I do want to ask for your prayers. The girls will be discharged tomorrow. Please pray that C's choices will be respected and that baby can come home with us. I am so sorry for not giving more info, just know that our hearts are broken that this is not looking so hot. And in this, we want to protect Kennedy, C and everyone involved.

We are praying that we can continue to show the love of Christ to C and her family. We pray they have already felt that love. We will keep everyone posted and truly appreciate all of your love and support.

17 comments:

Kristy said...

Dear Molly
I do believe it is when we are most broken that we can at that time really feel the presence of God. I mean yes he's always there but using your words "whoa" he is really there when we are calling in him and so many people are doing this right now for your family. Continued prayers, and respect for C's choice she has made and everyone in the way to be given clear sight to see Gods plan in all love Kristy

Just Believing said...

Hi Molly,

Will be praying I have been wondering about you guys as I saw FB stuff...will pray for God place in everything

Melodie said...

Praying now for little Kennedy and C. And of course for your family! Love you!

Julie said...

Good Golly Miss Molly, adoption is not for the weak in spirit is it. I'm so sorry their appear to be some obstacles in the way but your faith is amazing and each time I read something you've written I'm inspired or reminded or challenged in some way. I know you know that God is not surprised by this chain of events at all, just know you have many people lifting you up to the Father and asking Him to make it all as He planned from the beginning of time but putting in a pretty please that Kennedy gets to come home with you all! Love you guys,
Julie

Charissa said...

Sounds tough. I'll be praying and hoping for an update very soon. Hugs, friend.

Lisa said...

Praying, Praying, Praying... Thank you for taking the time, and energy to share with us during this part of the journey!

We love you..

Lisa

norma murphy said...

I couldn't be more proud of you and Blake than when we go through these moments! Know your dad and I will continue to pray for C, Kennedy and her sister! YOU are incredibly wise, daughter!! Love and see you in the am!! We will clean, laugh, shop, laugh and have a great day... Love, Noonie

Betty S. said...

Love ya and will continue to keep you all in our prayers. Praying for Kennedy and C. need anything let me know.

Sara said...

Hi Molly, here in Italy we are praying for your family.

Sara, Edoardo e Carlo.

Anonymous said...

Oh, Molly. I have read your blog for about a year now and probably haven't ever commented. My heart is breaking for you. I know God is in this and has a plan for your family, as well as Ms. C and Miss KK. I'm praying His will in this situation, as well as comfort and strength for your family and Ms. C. You have had such a precious spirit and attitude in everything I have read and I'm sure C has been able to see Jesus's love shine through you.

-M.

Kim H. said...

My goodness - I'm so sorry! Having just gone through this 2 weeks ago myself - I know the pain that you are feeling. I am still broken over the loss of our baby - but I will be praying for all of you!

sarah @ life {sweet} life said...

Molly, I am just getting around to catching up on blogs as I've fallen way behind, and am so sorry to hear what you're going through. You have such a beautiful spirit and I know the Lord will work this all out according to His will. I am praying for strength and comfort for you during this time! :)

Anonymous said...

Though I have only spoken to once when we met at the hay ride, I have been amazed by your spirit. What a love for God you have! I have no doubt that C and her family have seen this shine through. I am heartbroken along with you and praying God's peace and comfort during this time.

Chassidy said...

You and Blake are such an inspiration to us....you have such a way to make a very ugly situation seem so peaceful. We love you and are praying for you. I have no doubt God sees the full picture even when our hearts don't understand

Jennifer said...

Oh Molly...just got sent a prayer update for you and I had to RUN to your blog and catch up. WOW...I am so sorry that you are having to walk this path. I am praying for the Lord's will in this, but selfishly praying that baby Kennedy gets to come home, home to your house! My heart is broken for you today and I only know you through the cyberworld! May God be glorified even in this!

Stephanie said...

Praying for you and your sweet family. Praise the God that never wastes pain. Know He uses you mightily to encourage and inspire....
Love you!

Sara said...

I can relate to seeing God in the really difficult times... Molly, I am praying for you guys... praying over all the details... he will carry you through it all... keep resting in Him. It is awesome to see your love for Christ through this all, I am sure that C can see that also:) Praying!
Sara