Being honest...

Today has been a good day. We have no updates as far as the adoption goes. We haven't heard any news.



We completed our homestudy today.



That was quite an accomplishment.



We knew they weren't concerned about the safety of our home.



This agency knows us well.



We were more concerned about keeping our kids under control and in line enough to say, "Hey, we can handle another one!"



Now, we know most of you are in shock (still) that we are ready again.



So please, picture with me what this 1.5 hour visit was like for us.



I was sweating bullets that we could avoid serious meltdowns or tantrums in front of our sweet social worker.



The boys ended up doing great, only had one meltdown that led to time alone for Cooper.



Owen kept begging to watch a movie.



I was like, "Come on honey, don't act like we always watch TV here."




Owen later looked out the back door and gasped, "The swing set fell down."




Now any of you that have been here lately know we need a new swing set.




So I about died.




No way that just happened while we were having our homestudy!




Little booger, it was fine...




Nothing happened, I am not sure what he saw, but thank God it's still hanging in there!



I think we passed.





My title of being honest was about Blake and I's feelings after the homestudy.



We were reminded that some adoptions fall through.



Of course, we know that...



We've experienced it.



How could we forget?



We don't want to be fearful. We want to enjoy this time and celebrate what God is blessing us with.



But, inside, in all honesty...we wonder if this will really happen.



Will Sadie come home to us?



Please continue to pray for Brittanie. I cannot imagine the emotions she is feeling.




This is not about us!!!



Please pray for us, that we can trust God through this.



That His plan will be known and that we will glorify Him regardless of what happens.



Thank you all for my birthday wishes...it's been a great day.



My mom came down and brought tons of baby stuff from my sister. Thank you Aunt Becki!



We've got the clothes ready, bassinet out...still need to collect somethings here and there!



But I am feeling good!



Here's a picture that my sister sent, I loved it minus the rolls/wrinkles around my chin.



More than anything, I love these boys that God has blessed us with.



I love this man that God has given me to walk through life with.